“It’s not about knowing who you are. It’s about thinkin you got there without takin anything with you. Your notions about startin over. Or anybody’s. You don’t start over. That’s what it’s about. Every step you take is forever. You can’t make it go away. None of it.”—Cormac McCarthy, ‘No Country for Old Men’
Mr Muthafuckin eXquire - The Big Fat Intro (produced by Sick Sentz)
"Bipolar, Zoloft, antidepressants Wrestling with demons, I’m caught in a full nelson Bob Backlund, all my problems overlapping If it aint that, it’s this then it’s that then Still strapped in, fuck the world is my last action Middle finger high while they lower my casket Soul blackening, lord knows I’m on my last one Only way I feel Ima make it is through rappin’…
It’s quite telling that this no-hook, all-verse track was what Mr Muthafuckin Exquire chose to begin his very first mixtape with. It’s rife with him sounding gully as fuckkk while honestly locking horns with all this self doubt and disillusionment that he’s facing. It’s introspection done well, imho - He digs sharply into uncomfortable crevices but never complacently settles into the corners of defeat or self pity. He does it so well in fact that, by the end of the track, when he spits a clenched-jaw FUCK YOU to everyone who questions his hustle, it comes off as being defiant and fierce instead of tired and cliche.
All of these interesting dimensions are probably most evident midway through the song when Mr Muthafuckin Exquire, without losing a step in his verse, barks the following lines out:
"Put my life on the line without a safety net, Make decisions that I’m prayin I won’t regret…”
Nice, Well-Adjusted, Friendly Person: Why didn’t you answer my text? ….You should get a Blackberry. You can chat for free with like your top 10 friends. Me: Wow.Wow.Wow.Wow.Wow. Top 10? Ten? TEN? That is way, waaayyy, waaaaaayyyyyy more than all the friend I have. Nice, Well-Adjusted, Friendly Person: *shakes head* *resumes checking her cellphone*
I don’t know how I missed a Scrooge McDuck/Duck Tales reference by Waka but better late than never - I have recognized it now and I am thoroughly pleased with the world and everything it has offered me.